I could not possibly find any magical words to let him know that being in love with him for a brief yet beautiful time is probably my ultimate yet (ironically)  favorite mistake in my so called magical world.

i can still see my break of dawn and i will never ever be – sorry…in the here and now i am empowered of being whole and NOT sorry at all…ironic isn’t it?!!!

I’ve been in Bangkok for approximately 3 months and still having the hard time talking/understanding Thai lang. Oh well, maybe just enough to get around and feed myself but not enough to make intelligent conversation.

I miss Papa Zee.. thats why  I desperately wanna pack my things up  & go  home to where i truly belong. Lately, im having bad dreams and I find myself waking up in the middle of the night thinking if Papa is ok. oh, life…

and i want to see the new members of my family. Kuya Jp’s two Chinese Sharpies whose names are Hanni and Bal. (from the movie Hannibal– my bro is crazy to name them that) But i think he changed it to Hannie and Pie (as suggested by moi) or to his new invented names– Hippo and Hannie.

My other brother James got a new babe and its a German Shepherd, the name is Shadow and a Doberman just for my dearest Papa Zee whom he simply calls… Dobbie. (how sweet!)

… and I really miss Misty (shes a sweet Golden Retriever) and Sugar (our crazy Dalmatian puppy)  and of course the askal doggies we have, Tara and her new babe, Moymoy and Pumpkin. Hugs and kisses to them all.  i terribly miss them.

so, i guess my siblings and  i will be raising dogs and not kids. and its pretty fine with me but sometimes i wish one of my sibs will get married  so that there will be a kiddo in the family. Dogs can make us all happy alright but it would have been different if its a baby– a bundle of joy, nah?